well since school has started the stress had been a manageable constant til my roommate up and left and so now i have the the place to myself, its very empty and it seems as if my friends in the cities have moved on to other ppl, are too busy to come and visit and have forgotten me(of course im exagerating bout the forgetting part but its what i feel all the same), but i guess that is life and i must swallow the loneliness and keep putting one foot in front of the other as hard as it may seem. the loneliness is so acute at times i cant even cry. and not to mention the added stress of my technology woes. still no net on my comp, im currently in the comp lab in the basement its cold and the other ppl playin their music. idk why im posting a jourmal here but i just needed to let out some of these emotions cuz im tired of telling mu and kb and having them worry but i still get so jealous when i know they are hanging out even if it at denny's to do hw >-<

im going to try to keep my emotions to myself from now on and post journals instead of telling ppl if i feel like im gonna burst

well i have english class at 9 so i should probably be getting to be im so exausted emotionally and physically...

so... good nite or if your so inclined good morning

ps wow ok so in the process of writing this alot of ppl have left, there was like 8 or so and now it down to 4 including me..... and 2 more leacing at this moment

pps omg im so fucking cold, i cant stop shivering